I want to die every day. I want my time to come soon. I would never kill myself, I don’t have the guts or heart. I pray my time is soon, I feel ready.
I feel like I will never be able to forget everything you put me through
I can move on and I know how to keep what you did to me separate from this new life I am building. But it’s like every time something happens that isn’t in my favor I’m reminded of you and I shut myself down. I can’t feel as sad as I did when I was with you again. I know I can’t always be happy but how come when something little happens I freak out? You ruined me. How am I supposed to just lower my expectations? Please, just tell me how.
I’m gonna listen to my head this time.
because if I was the love of your life you wouldn’t do these things to me. People don’t treat the “loves of their lives” like dirt.
You know what?
Its not okay for you to make me feel the way I feel. It’s really not okay.